I just made a snowwy December night for Pharrell. That's beat code for "a visually stunning instrumental".
Yo. I hope you niggas is really coming. It would mean a lot to me, and I'd be the best friend ever. Bottom line.
Unrelated, Em kinda BLACKED on "Bezerk". Lyrically. More on this story as it develops. But....... I don't know if I'll ever be as nuts about Em as I was. Pharrell though? I love him more and more with each listen and interview.
So I've been working on this compilation album for almost 10 years now (sigh of discouragement). Basically, my favorite musicians over my beats, arranged and composed by me. Like... an underground Chronic 2001. I knew it wouldn't work with Demevolist, and since them (then) I haven't found anyone I'm interested in musically.
With that said, I'm not giving up hope. A little SEGA based birdie told me to look out for Beyonce, Jay-Z, Nicki Minaj and Pharrell, and not to pass on the opportunity to work with Jack Splash... full time. The Jack thing I'm kinda reserved about, for reasons music can't cover. But I don't front on him musically. I seent him get down. He's pretty legit (to argue is to negate mad shit; much to my dismay).
I'm with the average person saying "yeah aight, nigga."
Regardless, here I go again, racking up beats for CU(later). And these shits is so ugly, my latest project is on hold like a mu'fukka. Right now, I got this record for me, Nicki and Pharrell called @Cha. At cha. At you. Pharrell on the hook, me and Najii on the verses. I got so many beats for Hovington it's just pitiful. And a Hamilton-supervised session with Beyonce and Pharrell is worth not killing yourself, no matter how hard Sharkeisha hit you.
But why do it? Why keep the faith? Why not just keep the ether to myself, right?
I came into this game wanting to be just like Pharrell.
I was mad at Pharrell midway through this whole thing.
I kicked HchO out of the house I had, to live in peace with Briana.
I hated Pharrell when I lost my deal.
I found In My Mind.
I love Pharrell again.
None of what I went through was his fault. He coulda helped though, by being adamant about me signing to Star Trak. But he was. I was just MAD loyal to Jimmy.
I said it on Twitter, but I need ONE MORE conversation with P H arrell (from "It's" ... get it now?) before I can put the past behind me. He's kinda not the past, because he's everywhere I turn nowadays. I'm not using him to get hot. If such was the case, I woulda put out "Hyperspeed" and felt whatever kinda way about a reaction. But nah. I wanna restore my relationship with an idol of mine.
So, here's my list of heroes, as so delicately edited through the years.
1) J Dilla
4) Pharrell Williams
5) The Alchemist
6) Nicki Minaj
THE ONLY REASON GEORGE MASSA ISN'T ON THIS LIST IS BECAUSE I WANT TO BE A HERO TO HIM. He really believes in me, so I have to really go hard to make him proud.
Other than that, the top hero in my book OF ALL TIME is Silver the Hedgehog.
Sonic is Y'ALL hero, and MY best friend. I kinda "baby" Sonic too much, too. So maybe Sonic is my hero and I just don't want him to get injured out there on the Mobotropolis battlefield.
When I said I was J Dilla's Gothic Daughter, that basically meant I accept I am mutantly different from/than you, and my bond with music is never believed, though it is to be so. A lot of people went a lot of different directions with it, but ... know this.
Listening to Em makes you wanna fight back. Listening to Jay makes you wanna be a fighter.
Charles Hamilton is a musician amongst rappers. Maturity can reveal to you my struggle is not yours. I was the slave of the people when I was in my "prime" (2008). I only recorded music and put it out for free, pretty much at the beckon of fans saying "when are we getting new music?". I understand I'm not in your face all the time, but Pharrell dropped a 24-hour video. I have months worth of music, and more to come.
I do need to record more new music, but no. I want to see progression. Ignorance cannot be presented and it be forcefed to you as "art". So when Cheif Keef and Kanye get seen as the same, you'll see me more often.
For me to have been the ultimate slave to the listener, I can ask for things from them when I see I am desired.
You understand me. You're just not high right now.
Grading this using any English rubric, I'd get a B minus. Maybe a C. I know that. Don't believe in me. Believe me.
Eminem has Eminem, Marshall Mathers and Slim Shady. I'm just Charles Hamilton, dealing with a universe parallel to yours. Very simple.
So I have a lot of new music. A LOT of new music. A LOT of GOOD new music. The problem is, the beats are VERY hi-fi and the lyrics are lo-fi. Rather, hi-fi, with a lot of digital dust. It sounds very Daniel Johnston, but with less fog. I even recorded Macaroni Surprise like that. The thing is, the beats are so fully mixed and produced, it's hard to decided whether or not these are just drafts.
East Lenox is right now my favorite song from the Macaroni Surprise folder, and I know if I take it into a big studio and re-record it, it will sound HUGE-ER.
What to do?
I should be hitting a big studio in due time, and I got the beats to stand up to any studio.
I think for the album that hits stores I'm gonna produce things a certain way. Just to give you that "rich" sound so many people have been bitching about.
But yeah. I like my latest music. ...like 2 songs I almost deleted, because only I would get it. Other than that, I've confident in their strength.
On a comedown, tired and excited about some things coming up. Long time coming, too.