Wednesday, April 23, 2014


Out of celebration of my newly-acquired universe, I decided to risk it all. And took a Xanax. Immediately thereafter, I made a beat. This beat raised the bar, no pun intended. But I can easily see myself trying to overdose on it. So that's the last damn Xanax bar I'll ever take.

But it's WAY better than coke.

And I haven't done coke in ages.

Kids, don't start doing drugs before you reach a certain level of maturity.

YIKES am I hung over. It's gonna to take a Mountain Dew to wake me up this morning. smh

Another album in progress. It's magikly sad.

I'll work on the cover art soon enough.

Time to check on the forum of which I put my phone number on, out of sheer frustration about being hated on by 13-year old know-it-alls.

Try not to call or text me if you got my number from there.

Good morning.

Know you're beautiful.

Monday, April 21, 2014

Freestyling, using the MLA format.

(from wikipedia)

"Peiter C. Zatko, better known as Mudge, was a member of the high profile hacker think tank the L0pht[1] as well as the long-lived computer and culture hacking cooperative the Cult of the Dead Cow. In 2010 Mudge accepted a position as a program manager at DARPA where he oversaw cyber security research.[2] Mudge now works for Google in Motorola's Advanced Technology & Projects division.[3]

Born in December 1970, Mudge graduated from the Berklee College of Music and is an adept guitar player.[2]

Mudge was responsible for early research into a type of security vulnerability known as the buffer overflow. In 1995 he published "How to Write Buffer Overflows", one of the first papers on the topic.[4] He published several security advisories on vulnerabilities in Unix and was a leader in the full disclosure movement. He was the initial author of security tools L0phtCrack, AntiSniff, and l0phtwatch.

Mudge was one of the first people from the hacker community to reach out and build relationships with government and industry. In demand as a public speaker, he spoke at hacker conferences such as Defcon[5] and academic conferences such as USENIX.[6] Mudge has also been a member of Cult of the Dead Cow since 1996.[7]

He was one of the seven L0pht members who testified before a Senate committee in 1998 that they could bring down the Internet in 30 minutes.[8] When L0pht was acquired by @stake in 1999, he became the vice president of research and development and later chief scientist.[9]

In 2000, after the first crippling Internet distributed denial of service attacks, he was invited to meet with President Bill Clinton at a security summit alongside cabinet members and industry executives.[10]

After leaving @stake in 2002[11] he disappeared from the information security scene before resurfacing as a technical advisor to "insider threat" company Intrusic.[12]

In 2004 he became a division scientist at government contractor BBN Technologies,[13] where he originally worked in the 1990s, and also joined the technical advisory board of NFR Security.[14]

In 2006 he was one of the subjects of an article entitled Hoaxers, Hackers, and Policymakers: How Junk Science Persuaded the FBI to Divert Terrorism Funding to Fight Hackers, published in the March/April 2006 edition of Skeptical Inquirer magazine.

On 11 August 2007 he married Sarah Lieberman, a co-worker at BBN.[citation needed]

In February 2010, it was announced that he would be project manager of a DARPA project focused on directing research in cyber security.[15]

At DARPA he helped to create the Cyber Analytical Framework which drives the agency's investments in cyber defense, and he runs at least three DoD programs known as Military Networking Protocol (MNP), Cyber-Insider Threat (CINDER), and Cyber Fast Track (CFT).

Military Networking Protocol (MNP) - Provides network prioritization with full user-level attribution for military computer networks.[16]

Cyber-Insider Threat (CINDER) - Focuses on identifying cyber espionage conducted by virtual insider threats such as future variants of Stuxnet or Duqu. CINDER is often mistakenly associated with Wikileaks in the media.[17][18] This is possibly due to the confusion between DARPA programs focused on identifying human insider threat such as ADAMS [19] and the identification of future software espionage posed by malware in the CINDER program.[20] This issue was clarified by Mudge in his Defcon 2011 keynote at 46 minutes and 11 seconds into the talk.[21]

Cyber Fast Track (CFT) - Provide resources and funding to security research, including programs run by hackers, hackerspaces, and makerlabs. The program provides an alternative to traditional government contracting vehicles that is accessible to individuals and small companies that previously would be unable to work within the cumbersome and complicated DARPA process. It has a turn around time of within 14 days from receipt of proposal to contract.[22] The program was initially announced at Shmoocon during his 2011 keynote. In December 2011, he was named as one of the top 5 influential IT security thinkers of the year by SC Magazine.[23]

On 12 April 2013 Zatko announced that he would leave DARPA for a position at Google. [24]"

Using the MLA format mentally somewhat DEADS me EVER having to write ANYTHING.

New album, already in progress.

Know you're beautiful.

A song called "Love & Drunk"

"Somebody give me the chance to believe I'm actually freestyling
...and believe this could sound like a written.
My hands don't need to be around what could be what could be make a written.
Said two "whats".
Saw two "buts" moving.
Heard I had to grow up
through "up".
Didn't know what,
So I had to throw up 2."

-Charles Hamilton, "Love & Drunk"

I'm amazed at my new composition style. At the same time, my "delivery" is worse than ever. In a good way, though. The more "monotone" my voice is, the more spiritual the verse/song overall. On top of the psychedelic mix of the song. 

Working with Ben (who affectionately calls me his "artist) has been a blast. I just have to show him a few things... or, be receptive to him being a friend.

Look. I've mad some interesting choices as far as my manhood. But I'll never do anything to make you question my musicianship. Unfortunately, I think you already think I screwed that up.

So, no new music for a while.

I'm hella paranoid about my A$AP-affiliation. I didn't sign anything, but I do feel a sense of division amongst Harlem natives. I'd like to talk to A$AP Rocky face-to-face to talk about it (the specific issue), but I don't want it to become a turf war. It's bigger than that, and 'it' could benefit from the conversation. 

I don't believe in Harry Potter, but it is in my arsenal, can be used by me, and has been used by many others. So I have to be wise about the *magik* I employ in my music.

The difference between Control and Possession.

Merely one word. A word I can add at any point in time.

Know you're beautiful. 

Saturday, April 19, 2014

"Joey Jupiter"

...from 'African Child Pornography'.

Dedicated to one of the best friends anyone could ever have.

Joe Ruperto.

Hey, Joe. Whoever you are...

Know you're beautiful.

Dr. Dre's Fitness Program

Very recent. lol yeah I been workin' out a bit.


EvilLittle Puppy! Productions


Know you're beautiful.

mind your business.

I hate that things have come to this point with my "fans".

I'm gonna skip the fancy intro and just get to it. One of my male fans has a girlfriend. I didn't know they knew each other until she said so, and she only said so after we started "courting" each other. He finds out, he tells his friends, and one of his friends go on Kanye's forum about me and starts slandering me.

He said "send me your number" so we can talk. Then he says we met up and fought. Basically trying to make it look like this is nothing new between us.


I have never met this man, shorty lives in Washington, so does dude. This sounds like someone was phishing and found some stuff he thought was cute, and can't get out.

Look. To shorty, all your secrets are safe with me. To dude, treat her better. To the random outside nigga, don't ever come to NYC, not once not ever.

I'm tired of beefing with fans. Y'all haven't had to spend a dime to support. Just get and stay quiet. And to be real, if NO ONE IN THIS WORLD LISTENS TO MY MUSIC, I know for a FACT I have 5 SOLID listeners. I NEED to keep them happy, no matter what.

The rest of you, I would appreciate it if you like it, but knowing the gods are listening is about all that matters to me.

To the gods, I am growing, and with such growth comes musical development. I understand not everything will make you money, and I understand not everything will be easy to hear. But I ask that you understand my heart, and that everything I say comes from there.

It's been a long day AND night, and it's dying down now.

My number is posted online. I don't want to talk to everybody/everyone. So respect my number and my privacy.

I'm spending Easter with my family. Respect it.


Shout out to Drake, once again.

Know you're beautiful.

Friday, April 18, 2014

The Virgin Suicides

actually the title of an in-progress album. lol not Cherry Poppin' Daddy.... but yeah.

Anyway, this song is dedicated to any virgins I deflowered.

Ghost mode.

(#Unforgiven is PISSED)

Know you're beautiful.

Honorable demand.

With SO much demand for my new music, I might HAVE to put out some new music pretty soon. I just don't want any issues with Turn First, and I'm always leery of Boe and Dre's opinion. Yo. These niggas is like swagged out Suge Knights. Not to say they bully me, because they don't, but they have an edge that would shock your average Starchaser.

Why do these niggas like me?

Such is kinda the concept behind my new music.

Yes, Wilson and Andre, I love you so much, my new music talks about you. Very much in the light of "...and Dr. Dre said," whenever said by Eminem.

I love you, but you frighten me.

I would like to apologize to Christina for accusing her of having feelings for Boe. "Scandal" isn't just a show in my world.

So... the projects to choose from...

African Child Pornography
The Evil Mircochip
Boy Who Played With Barbie
Yoda Da Vampire
The Madness Album

The latter two are only about 5 songs long. Just enough for indulgence. So... be on the listen out for some newbies.

Thank you for demanding my music so grossly. And I say grossly, with so much love in my heart. 

Please, don't start with the "he shoulda mixed it like this" crap, because I worked STUPID hard on each mix, as I always do.

And like that, WE OUTTA HERE!

Know you're beautiful.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

And now, a blog entry to Jay-Z.

So I'm working on another.... (sigh) ANOTHER beat for you. This time, it's a song.

It's called "New Hov".

Look man. You don't like your time wasted, neither do I. I like your music, I think you deserve me on your team. And, as exemplified by Trudi's new tattoo, if I'm not the one for you to blossom with musically, you have Dr. Dre, and Dre has my blessings.

Just don't forget about your day one over here.

I'm your day one. From day one. I mean, like, day 6 or something, but dead ass a day oner.

Don't leave me hanging like this, Uncle J. I can't afford this heartbreak.

If all goes well, this could be a buzz record for "Shot Glass". A title which probably has the longevity of a shot of tequila in the summer.

I have an approach in the studio. I can afford to be more stern, but I don't want to lose collaborators as friends and vice versa. So pardon my initial timidness. I really love and care about you, but we got work to do.

Like I said, don't leave me hanging.

Know you're beautiful.

The inevitable and very short blog entry entitled, "Dear J Dilla"

I'm going back to worshipping Curtis Mayfield. It's better for the both of us. I love you, still and always will.

Know you're beautiful.

More damn reunion talk.

Blah, blah, FUCKING blah.

Here we are, on a semi-drunken evening, and the wind cries 'reunion'. Here I am, pilled up, disappointed and rejected. There they are, always there, and lightyear-ical miles away.

After I allowed myself to be infuriated about Jack's indiscrimination, allowed myself to look and sound like a fool in the name of Dilla's legacy, and allowed myself to be scrutinized publicly by Beyonce (George), FINALLY niggas start seeing what I was saying from the beginning.

THE beginning.

I spent every second of my immortality serving these guys. And it's not like I don't love them. I do. I love them with every fiber of my being. But I denied Bey for George forEVER, and now I'm giving in... I gave in to Nicki, unaware she's Dilla. Now my attention to Dilla is semi-tainted. As far as Jack, all I ask is that he make everything alright. Like... I'm confused about the whole thing.

Did you forget Jack is evil?

Did you forget about the four of us?

In the midst of all this booty chatter, I have found myself, and I love myself in ways these three could never do for me. Then again, they were there for me at my lowest point.

I feel like I owe them, but I owe it to myself more to keep a healthy distance.

It's not fair, man.

Stop playing games with me. Each of you three.

The Illuminati has gotten more powerful than SEGA, let's be clear on that. SEGA, let's CHANGE that. I hate the fact something as intangible as a secret society has proven it's weight stronger than the very fact of existence.

But let me play the "everything is all in your head, Charles" game with you guys for a minute. Look. My current girl likes Boe. Chalk it up as a loss, I say to myself. I just want her to keep it real with me about it. Don't pity/mercy fuck me. Thank you for being there whilst all this drama was in the air, but don't ONLY be around for the comeback. Maybe such was meant to humble me, as I ...well, no. I've always been pretty humble. Very humble. You have to know me very well to know how conceited I can get, and even then my conceit is executed out of love.


George, Jack, Dilla, you guys holla at me. I'm tired of putting my neck out there, only to actually get beheaded, while I watch each of you guys get first class treatment.

I'm still living in Harlem. And though I have a record deal, that doesn't mean I'm caking off like crazy. And yes. I'm tired of loving with nobody to love. You guys are "always there", but never around. I can never get in touch with you guys... or maybe I just need not try, you know...?

So much to say, so much more to say, but I'll leave it here.

If you guys really want me, show me you're around. And stop playing games with the knowledge of the fact I'm weak around you guys. Rather, weak ABOUT you guys. It's not cool, and it leads to the worse kind of misconceptions.

I'm gonna piss out this wine. Holla back.

Know you're beautiful.

I woke up like...

I woke up this morning, jealous of Jay-Z. I woke up this morning, seeing myself letting Pharrell down. I woke up this morning, feeling inadequate in the eyes of Bey and Nicki. I woke up this morning, wanting no issues with Mike Tyson.

O, how I woke up this morning.

I woke up this morning, feeling like the weak link in The Illuminati. I woke up this morning, in absolute fear of Boe and Dre. I woke up this morning, completely untrusting of Turn First.

I woke up this morning, hating myself.

This Abilify shit is not for me. Anti-depressant pills suck. Straight up.

I don't deserve all this shit. At all. I don't have much, but I have a lot. I don't think I should ever brag. All this shit could be gone in the blink of an eye. But what is the it of the all of which could be gone in the blink of an eye?

O, how I woke up this morning.

I don't know what's going on with me.

My cousin is supposed to be performing tonight. I need to get there. I won't stop until I'm there.

I found a new God. So J Dilla, as much as I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY love you, I'm gonna give you your room. And go back to worshipping _.

Not me, so don't think I'm cheating on you with me.

"take a listen..."

O, how I woke up this morning.

Great. Now I'm supremely compelled to going back to worshipping Dil Withers. Listen. I'm VERY serious about worship, and my worship of Dilla. Even if that means I'm totally submissive to Nicki Minaj. But I woke up, feeling inadequate... rather, not man enough for Nicki and Bey. I woke up this morning, feeling as though I'm gonna let Pharrell down. I woke up this morning, jealous of Jay-Z.

And the morning just started.

Know you're beautiful.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

A society as Antithesis

Definition of Antithesis

Antithesis, literal meaning opposite, is a rhetorical device in which two opposite ideas are put together in a sentence to achieve a contrasting effect.

Antithesis emphasizes the idea of contrast by parallel structures of the contrasted phrases or clauses, i.e. the structures of phrases and clauses are similar in order to draw the attention of the listeners or readers. For example:

“Setting foot on the moon may be a small step for a man but a giant step for mankind.”

The use of contrasting ideas, “a small step” and “a giant step”, in the sentence above emphasizes the significance of one of the biggest landmarks of human history.

Common Examples of Antithesis

Some famous antithetical statements have become part of our everyday speech and are frequently used in arguments and discussions. Below is the list of some antithetical statements:

Give every man thy ear, but few thy voice.
Man proposes, God disposes.
Love is an ideal thing, marriage a real thing.
Speech is silver, but silence is gold.
Patience is bitter, but it has a sweet fruit.
Money is the root of all evils: poverty is the fruit of all goodness.
You are easy on the eyes, but hard on the heart.
Examples of Antithesis in Literature

In literature, writers employ antithesis not only in sentences but also in characters and events. Thus, its use is extensive; below are a few examples of antithesis in literature:

Example #1

The opening lines of Charles Dickens’ novel “ A Tale of Two Cities” provides an unforgettable example of antithesis:

“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way.”

The contrasting ideas, set in parallel structures, markedly highlight the conflict that existed in the time which was discussed in the novel.

Example #2

In Shakespeare’s “Julius Caesar” we notice antithesis in characters of “Mark Antony” and “Marcus Brutus”. Brutus is portrayed as a “noblest of Romans” close to Caesar and a person who loved Rome and Caesar. Antony, on the contrary, is shown as a man with evil intentions of harming Caesar and taking charge of Rome. These antithetical characters highlight the conflict in the play.

Example #3

Alexander Pope in his “An Essay on Criticism” says:

“To err is human; to forgive divine.”

Fallibility is a trait of humans and God, his creator, is most forgiving. Through these antithetical ideas, Pope reveals the basic nature of human beings. He wants to say that God is forgiving because his creation is erring.

Example #4

We find antithesis in John Donne’s poem “Community”:

“Good we must love, and must hate ill,
For ill is ill, and good good still;
But there are things indifferent,
Which we may neither hate, nor love,
But one, and then another prove,
As we shall find our fancy bent.”

Two contrasting words “love” and “hate” are combined in the above lines. It emphasizes that we love good because it is always good and we hate bad because it is always bad. It is a matter of choice to love or hate things which are neither good nor bad.

Example #5

John Milton in “Paradise Lost” says:

“Better to reign in Hell, than serve in Heav’n.”

The contrasting ideas of “reign”/ “serve” and “Hell”/ “Heav’n” are placed in a sentence to achieve an antithetical effect.

Function of Antithesis

A literary device like antithesis uses words to convey ideas in different ways from the common words and expressions of daily life. Thus, it conveys meaning more vividly than ordinary speech. When contrasting ideas are brought together, the idea is expressed more emphatically.

As a literary device, antithesis makes contrasts in order to examine pros and cons of a subject under discussion and helps to bring forth judgment on that particular subject.

THAT, on GarageBand.

Yes, it's a concept album. Listen to it enough times, you might catch on.

Know you're beautiful.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

The Chronicles of Happy

You know what, P? My humor is toooooooo much for my comments on this epic ass song. #Happy and #DrunkInLove are in the same vein, as far as being a part of a musical movement bigger than anything Motown-related.

Promise me you'll come with straight skill. All of you. Then I can sleep a bit better.

I'll explain later. Just .......please............. shut it down in the lab for me. With me. With me. #WM (and the game of Risk begins...)

Know you're beautiful.

Know you're beautiful.

Because I'm not complimenting you anymore.

And even if I do, it's because it makes me feel good.